My close friend,
Ben Tanzer, has taken on the self-obliged pursuit of writing novels. Ben and I have known each other in Chicago for a dozen or so years. Our friendship developed over hours of running together while training for and running the Chicago marathon in the late '90's. Ben had already settled into the life of a happily married man, while I was still experiencing life as a bachelor. Combining my predisposition for introspection and a desire to express the reflection of my experiences , (
no blogging in 1996) Ben ended up on the receiving end of what I imagined were a lot of monologue-
ish conversations. Thankfully, he's an excellent
listener.
I imagine that I wasn't the only person benefiting from Ben's exquisite listening skills - it leaves me curious how much his broadband listening inputs have channeled him into a life of writing.
Ben's early efforts at writing short stories got him published in venues like online 'zines which eventually led him to publish his first novel,
Lucky Man in 2007. Lucky Man weaves a tale of 4 young adults who are trying to sort out their uniquely dysfunctional lives. I might also mention that Ben's education is in social work. Anyone in Ben's orbit knows about his possession of a singeing wit, whose observations can leave any of his friends (
or those who he feels emotionally stout enough to take it) scorched with uncomfortable truths. The growing pains of his writing in
Lucky Man exhibited both his desire for these uncomfortable truths, as well as his own guilty need to protect those he wished to spare. I have shared with Ben a thought that I can perhaps articulate better in writing. His desire to protect people from the darker thoughts in his writing represented a fixed mindset where he was defending a certain point of view. Was this from his background as a social worker, faithful husband and loving father? To me, the effect of his protective mindset obscured/prevented his deeper thoughts from reaching the page. The underlying paradox of exposure and protection combined with a writing style nascent in its development created a work which very much resembled the characters he was writing about. Plenty of interesting dysfunction, not much clarity about what it means. Perhaps the stylistic disconnect of
Lucky Man was emblematic of
Tanzer giving himself permission to write about themes he desperately needed to explore on paper. Stylistically, his writing sounded a lot like hearing Ben speak in person.
Insightful dialog sometimes needs more form before it translates well to the page.
Ben and I now each have families with kids, and haven't gone running together for years. We do get out occasionally for a beer. About 8 months ago, Ben described to me the feeling of liberation from his artistic shackles. He went on to describe that he is writing more freely than ever. Producing articles and a book has gotten his flow going. Getting critiqued can be freeing as well. I hadn't had any more thoughts on Ben's artisitic euphoria, except that I was happy for him.
Sometimes it is such a personal journey.A few weeks ago,
I attended an opening (watch Ben read selections) for
Tanzer's second novel,
Most Likely You Go Your Way and I’ll Go Mine.It is a joy to watch the growth of an artist, who feels the pain of criticism of work put forth, and emerge with a dynamically improved product. Hearing Ben read from
Most Likely, he is no longer defending his moral universe in his fiction. He's letting his darkness and light rip, and cultivating his writing structure, as opposed to writing it down as he hears it. (quite the turn of events) For an artist to grow, and to stake their claim to validity, one must stop defending their point of view as they want to be seen in the world (fixed mindset) and work to express what really makes them tick as they confront the world. It means not using your own moral universe to edit your own writing. This makes for some scary going, but moves one into the growth mindset category.
Most likely explores some of the same subjects as
Lucky Man, but has shed some of self imposed permission to write. Instead of using uncomfortable subjects as the emblem, and permission to write as the underlying theme,
Most Likely uses uncomfortable subjects as the device to express deeper feelings about unresolved relationships and
infidelity.
Tanzer's writing style reflected the deeper layers of meaning in
Most Likely, with longer expressions of intellectual and emotional intimacy. In musical terms, his style has progressed from short staccato phrases, to longer deeply breathed expressions. It is in these longer phrases that begin to show what is on Ben's mind. His humor has provided a tension breaking counter to these longer musings, and gives the reader a glimpse at
Tanzer's evolving integration of ideas. More readers will start to understand what makes him such an interesting friend. After all these years of listening and providing
insightful reflection to his friends,
Most Likely has listened to
Lucky Man, and is helping him grow.